The Tie

Up to now, I still have no idea whether it is the tie that does not suit me or it is I who do not suit the tie. Or maybe, I simply feel so out of nothing. I have asked myself this question many times whenever I am on my way to a formal meeting. For me, I am not against wearing a tie with a suit. I just want to say that when I try to put it on, I instantly feel that I am no longer myself, the fact that makes me obsessed with this mundane issue. Also, when I am about to put it on, I immediately feel that I have got two personalities. One of them is the real me, and the other one is the serious, officious me. And it is at this point where these two personalities collide, preventing themselves from overlapping and coming together. There are of course times when I believe that I have to give up this silly idea, but recently I have come to the conclusion that when I look at myself in the mirror, it is the tie that does not really suit me. It does not simply because I believe it does not. I do not blame the tie itself for not suiting me. Rather, I blame myself for not suiting it. What I am aiming at here is that we do not have to blame it all the time on objects, clothing, tools, etc. It is we who make the latter appear so just as I have done with the innocent tie.